In August, I listened to …

Go Tell It on the Mountain, James Baldwin
Giovanni’s Room, James Baldwin
I was introduced to the work of James Baldwin in the 1970s when studying American Literature as part of my first degree. I was initially unenthused at the prospect. I couldn’t imagine being interested in anything written by a black, male, homosexual American. I can no longer remember what that first book was, but I do remember being so taken by Baldwin’s work that I went straight to the library and checked out Go Tell It On The Mountain, his first and highly autobiographical book. It’s no exaggeration to say this novel is a tour de force. Ostensibly, it tells the story of one day in the life of fourteen year old Johnny Grimes. In actuality, it encompasses the histories of his immediate family, delving into previous generations to document their trials, shortcomings and small triumphs as they migrated north to New York in search of a better life. A lot of their stories are rooted in despair and disgrace, yet an optimism for a better future persists, buoyed up by a fierce belief in the religion that holds them together. Not an easy read, in any sense of the word, but powerful, raw and honest.

Giovanni’s Room was ground-breaking at the time of its publication, telling the story of a young man in Paris, struggling to deny his homosexuality, refusing to acknowledge the very real love he feels for the eponymous Giovanni. As homosexuality was illegal at that time in America (although not in Paris) the book was treated as pulp fiction and published with a lurid cover picture of a half-naked man in the background. Again, Baldwin leaned heavily on his own experiences, although portraying the main character as a young, white man.The story doesn’t quite hold together in terms of structure and parts were a bit rushed but, nevertheless, it
is both haunting and tragic in places.

Fox, Joyce Carol Oates
Oates has always been one of my go-to authors. She can be savage, even brutal – she tore Marilyn Monroe to shreds in Blonde – but I admire her writing style and she’s certainly not afraid to grasp the nettle. However, I came really close to DNFing Fox. It wasn’t so much the subject matter, which has been done many times before – a paedophile teacher abusing his young pupils – but rather the heavy handed repetition that robs the book of its impact.
There are multiple characters whose stories are expertly woven into the plot and, in parts, Oates can tug at the heartstrings but, ultimately, the whole thing needed a swingeing edit to remove at least thirty per cent of Oates meandering.

My Dark Vanessa, Elizabeth Russell
This novel has an almost identical theme to Fox, this time written from the victim’s point of view in two different timelines. Initially, I thought I had picked up a YA book by mistake until I listened to an interview with the author in which she explained that the book had been many years in the making and the early chapters had been written in her mid-teens. These chapters are heavy with references to books, poems etc. – and, yes, Lolita is instanced many times, as is quite a lot of Nabokov’s other works. Vanessa, as a young girl, is extremely well portrayed although the plot stretched credulity at times. The chapters in which she is an adult are slow and lack energy. A bit of a disappointment in view of the many positive reviews.

The Long Walk, Stephen King (as Richard Bachman)
As far as I recall, King wrote four of the Bachman books about fifty years ago. Already a successful author, he wanted to see if he could get published as an unknown author. Turns out he could, but the books bombed – until he was outed and then they sold like hotcakes. I had planned to revisit them but The Long Walk has cured me of that notion.
One hundred boys, aged fourteen to eighteen, walk for five days and nights without stopping. The winner gets everything his heart desires for the rest of his life. If a boy falters, for even a moment, he gets a warning. After the third warning, he gets shot. Dead. Only one boy makes it to the finishing line. So, basically, it’s a story of ninety-nine boys walking until they’ get killed. The ending makes no sense whatsoever.
Whatever reason King had for writing the Bachman stories, he did prove one thing with this dreadful, depressing book – only Stephen King could get away with it.

Adrift, Will Dean

Penny and Drew live in a narrow boat on a canal and it’s obvious from the very beginning that he is a nasty piece of work, controlling both Peggy and their fourteen year old son, Samson, by a toxic mixture of fear and gaslighting. Depriving them of food, moving the boat further and further away from amenities and human contact. In addition to the unremitting misery of his home life – he doesn’t even have bed – Samson is being bullied at school.
Dean sketches in his characters in so much gruelling detail that they become caricatures of themselves as Drew piles on evil deed after evil deed and his wife and son abjectly accept everything he throws at them. And yet Peggy works in a library and has written a novel while Samson is highly intelligent with a wealth of knowledge on a variety of subjects. I couldn’t get behind any of the characters apart from wanting to shake Peggy and Samson for submitting to the ludicrous cartoonish Drew.

At a keystroke

One of my brighter ideas!

I’ve reached the stage where I can no longer see the keypad on my laptop. A bit of a blow as my main computers are upstairs and I like working on my laptop in the evenings. Then I hit on the idea of balancing my big button keyboard on my laptop and hey presto! I can still relax in my armchair with my laptop on my knee.

Golden Age Suspense Stories

Editor: Otto Penzler

For readers/listeners of a certain age, this book is a trip down memory lane. Otto Penzler has assembled a sterling selection of short stories from the years between the two world wars. Each story is preceded by a potted biography of the author, many of whom have legendary film credits to their name – a great touch that really holds the book together. 
The stories are of their time time but not dated. Each one is as fresh as if it were written yesterday and each one has a well thought out plot and a satisfying denouement. I particularly enjoyed the stories by Ellery Queen and Pearl S. Buck and would recommend this book. #netgalleyence.

Never Forgive You: Hilly Barmby

Never Forgive You is listed as a suspense thriller and it certainly is, but it’s much more than that. The author has assembled quite a large group of characters in her French setting and also uses two different points of view to tell her story – devices which can be quite challenging when trying to hold the reader’s attention. In this instance, they not only work admirably but, in my opinion, enhance the tension as we see events through two differing interpretations.

It’s a story of murder and revenge, served stone cold, and is teased out with nail-biting anticipation. or sent me off in a different direction before the whole thing was brought to a I believed I had pinpointed the perpetrator early on but a clever little nudge from the auth satisfying conclusion.
This is the second book I have read by Hilly Barmby and will definitely be seeking out more.

Jan’s Garden

July 08, 2026
Three years ago, Jan began to build a garden in our small backyard. She was constrained to using plant pots and troughs and her plan was to incorporate as many wild flowers as possible to attract insects to our urban area. In between them, she added a variety of cottage garden flowers and all her hard work paid dividends this year. Among the wildflowers she has at the moment are cornflowers, musk mallow, verbena, fox and cubs, wild wallflowers and red valerian. Interspersed with these, she has chosen petunias, impatiens, fuchsia, hydrangea and foxgloves.
For me, the bonus is that, after all Jan’s hard work, I get to relax in the cool of the evening with a gin and tonic in the wonderful world she has created.

August 27, 2026
In addition to the insects above, we have also had visits from peacock, female common blue, painted lady, skipper and small copper butterflies and a common darter.
Also seen, but not shown here, silver Y and plume moths, and a queen bee.
All photographs © Jacqui Jay Grafton.

Circles of Confusion

SHADOWS OF THE PAST HANG HEAVILY ON THREE RUNAWAYS WHO FACE THEIR GREATEST FEARS JUST WHEN THEY THOUGHT THEY’D EARNED A NEW LIFE.

Jilly Graham knows what it is to be used and abused. She also knows how to get what she wants. Poised to achieve a First Class Honours degree, it seems the world is at her feet and she has buried the memory of what she did to pay for her education.
For three years, Jilly has lived with Rob Knowley, a loveless relationship, but when she begins a project documenting the lives of local sex workers, Rob becomes violent and abusive and her future and past violently collide.
Tina Lloyd has been a sex worker since she was fourteen years old and craves a normal family life, although in her heart she knows she is only one of the women her husband, Noel, controls. Their son, Leon, hates both his parents and is tormented at school because of Tina’s profession.
When Jilly allows a photograph of Tina to be published without Tina’s consent, it sets off a series of violent acts which eventually lead to an horrific murder. In the aftermath, Jilly, Tina and Leon are thrown together as fugitives. Living together in close confinement, none of them trusting the others, this fragile group opens up to one another and brutally honest truths emerge.

AMAZON UK. AMAZON US

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Shopping with AMD

Today, I popped into Marks & Spencer’s for three items – strawberries, fresh cream and a bottle of dry martini. (There are some perks attached to being on a low carb high fat diet). I was wearing my ‘visually impaired’ badge and I know exactly where all three items are kept, so I was quite confident of managing on my own.
Strawberries, no problem.
Fresh cream, no problem.
Dry martini – this is where things began to fall apart a bit. I walked up and down both sides of the aisle containing wines and spirits, etc. but no familiar green bottle.

I approached the only other person in the aisle, a man giving close attention to the spirits, and asked for his help. As always, help was given freely and generously. Together, we patrolled up and down the two sides of aisle, again with no success. I asked him if he would mind helping me further and again, he said, “Of course.”
As there was no martini, I determined on a small bottle of champagne, so my new friend undertook the job of reading the labels to me. It boiled down to a choice of three – champagne, prosecco and something he called cava. I professed my ignorance as to what cava might be and spent a very instructive and entertaining ten minutes as he explained the difference between the three options available to me. I settled on the champagne (of course!) and, after thanking him profusely, I made my way to the self checkout.
Here I encountered another problem. Since my last visit to this particular branch of Marks & Spencer Food Hall, the tills had been changed and I couldn’t decipher the screen. So, I made another new friend of one of the ever-helpful Marks & Spencer employees. She guided me through the locations of the start, scan, finish and contactless icons. So, after a few moments, I had a new skill and will be able to check out on my own.
I left the shop feeling very heartened. I’d encountered obstacles and overcome them with the help of two very kind people and held on to a small measure of my independence.

New beginnings (inc. audio)

Well, here it is, the first post on my re-vamped website, and what better way to start than with a present. This year has been a tough one so far for me and my family but when life gives you lemons, what do you do? Not make lemonade, that’s for sure, but a slice or two in a gin and tonic hits the spot and we soldier on.
This chapter from Ashes on the Tongue is narrated by Morgan Ayre, a native of Northern Ireland, and I think her distinctive brogue is perfect for Fen’s story. So, whether your tipple is the aforesaid gin and tonic or a cup of coffee, take a break and lose yourself in the Ireland of yesterday year.

ASHES ON THE TONGUE, THE STAIN OF SILENCE and BURDEN OF FREEDOM
In 1950s Northern Ireland, two families are connected by a history steeped in secrecy, violence and betrayal.Ruby and Victor Crozier are Protestants, with one daughter, Fen, still at home. When Victor forces Fen out of school and into work in a linen mill, she begins to learn about the darkness in her family’s history.
Rose and Dermot Quinn are Roman Catholics and parents of fifteen children. Their eldest son, John Joe, has just come home from England where he works and sends home much needed money.
When Fen and John Joe unwittingly witness an atrocity, they are drawn into a web of danger emanating not only from within their own homes but also from the violent campaign for a unified Ireland. In fear of reprisals, they each make decisions which will have far-reaching consequences and change their young lives forever.